my song playlist 1

弦子---第三者的第三者

我想现在的她很快乐

希望你晓得 这样不值得

虽然我们曾爱过

她也曾是第三者

但我不会不让自己重蹈覆辙

我很快乐

请不要再说爱我

别再触碰我心里还未伤愈的角落

习惯一个人的我

并不是缺你不可

如果你是爱我的 就别让自己再犯错

我很快乐

请不要再说爱我

我已经把失去的当成是了一种收获

悲伤的剧情太多 曾经也侵袭着我

所以我不再做 这第三者的第三者

That Day -- Maria Arredondo

Something 'bout your eyes

That I can not forget

Something 'bout your smile

Makes it hard for me to sleep at night

Something about me

Doesn't work like normally

Something about you

That I can't hold on to

Am I waiting in vain?

Do I deserve this pain?

When will I see you again?

Why did you talk to me -- that day

Why did you say those things -- that day

Why did you come to me -- then walk away

When there was something in the air

Soemthing in the wayt I meet you that day

Still can feel the way you looked at me

And I wonder how you stole my heart completely

Something in the way you would hold my hand

That I believe the fate will bring you back to me again

A guy like you belongs to somebody else

A guy like you will never come back again

Do you think of me now

Do you ever wonder how

We can meet again, meet again?

bear in mind bear in mind

亲爱的， 会离开你的人， 就是不适合你的人，就是只能在过去通行一段路的人， 就是与你无缘的人。 一个到处破洞的气球，任你再怎么努力为他灌气，它也不可能再度飞到天上去。

让他走，不是为了成全什么，只是为了让自己好过而已，别为难了自己。

爱的时候，深情款款是温柔。

不爱了， 不怨不尤，这才是更深的温柔。

How you use ur words?

I just cant take my eyes off from her.

I cant get rid of the habit that I have in my uni life, I just cant smooth the frown on my forehead.

She is a skinny girl. She never stop from walking here and there, cleaning the tables and delivering beverages to customers.

How old is she? Why she is here? What the heck she is doing here? 

She should in school in this hour! I have a lot of questions in my mind. She should have her education in school instead of being a waitress in this hawker center!

Well....It might be not polite to stare at her along the way, but I just cant help myself.

Before I left, I found that she is mute, she cant talk.

huh.....okay....this really messed up my mind. Thousand of feeling went through my mind. 

We should appreciate that we can talk. We should take this gift to express our feeling to others. She cant use any verbal way to express her feeling....

Why we seldom tell those we love " I love you." 

Why we seldom say " Thank you " 

Why we seldom say " Sorry "

Why we always use harsh words to hurt those we deeply in love.

Why we always create rumours to ruin reputation of others.

Why we always remain silent when talking is a necessary.

Let's ask yourself , 

do you have a single conversation with your daddy today?

do you ask your parents " How's your day " today?

Do you? Have you? Why dont you ask? Why?

Finally....this is the truth

The house is extremely silent. The only sound that surrounding the house comes from my laptop.

With my shaking hands and wrenching heart, I cant believe what I see at the moment. 

My eyes are covered by mist.I read his blog repeat and repeat again. 4 times. I read it 4 times....again and again....

" I had a total of 5 dates last year.........all…horribly twisted......... " what?! I cant believe our precious  memories is a ....horribly twisted memories for him. ...halo? let's make it clear who messed the thing up!?

I think I can never understand him. He always mysterised himself.

I have been finding many excuses to make a happy ending for our story without really listening to my friends cruel but true opinions. 

I liked him so much, Bastard! 4 months ago.

Thanks you. Really.

I accepted the truth.

trouble maker

life is fun!
we play variety of roles in our life.

I am a daughter.
I am a friend.
I am a student.
I am a grandchild.
I am a senior.
I am a sister.
I am a brother.
I am a neighbour.
I am a client.
I am a consumer.
I am a listener.
I am a speaker.
I am a presentor.
I am a free thinker.
and so on and on......

I like to play those roles in my life, I enjoy them!
Every second , every minute, I try my best to be the best of me!

but.....
I hate to be.....a trouble maker.......

If the appearance of me cause the trouble and make you recall all your hurts...
then I think I am the perfect trouble maker. ( never success like this before =D)
Why it is so hard for me to bring you hapiness?

or.....happy always come with hurt?

first day without you

u are here for me, i can touch u and feel u
but why i feel like i am in my dream?
I knw , I will wake up finally.
I wish , Not to wake up.

But u , wake me up.

U have stress from ur job
I have stress from my study
I thought we can share n face it together

But u reject
U prefer to face it by urself
U only wan to make me happy

But dear, I wish to go through every moment with u
no matter is the happy moment
or
the sad moment

U wish to have a perfect start
U wish to give me a perfect memory

But u knw wat i wish?
I just wish a simple start

My dear,
sometime love shouldnt have so much rational thinking
Love,
is a feeling,
Planning too much....is a dealing but not a love

心寒

博升

一即陌生却又有距离感的名字

在任的那一年里

我们

一起熬过了无数次的夜

彻夜未眠

一起开过数不清的会议

大大小小

一起为每一件事不停的争论

吵吵闹闹

一起面对过无数次的困难

互相支持

一起照顾与寻找学幼

目标一致

一起到出去玩了

玩乐最大

看着不停在电脑摆动的照片

看着照片里的人

他们深知我的性格

他们了解我的脾性

他们知道我的任性

我深知他的糊涂

我了解他的彷徨

我知道他的镇定

可是

在邦格岛

我不停的默默地问自己

我们真地认识吗？

在卸任以后

我们似乎越来越陌生

心理，不禁一阵心寒

我们真地认识吗？

还是

我们应该重新认识？