just a bit emo

phew~

not very good recently

even though I still smile like a sunshine

Things become more complicated

that's not just :" if u dun like, u can leave."

Nope.

Not that easy..

I cant leave.

I gonna stay.

Thousands of burden on my shoulder now.

Heavy.

How many times I wake up at 4am and stare at the ceiling and cant fall asleep again?

How many times I dream myself working hard in the office?

How many times I find myself sweating?

SzeWei:" I think u are still adapting to new environment."

I hope so.

Most of the time, I am just be quite and think.

I need someone.

I look at my left, no one.

I look at my right, no one.

I am alone.

( Well.....guys, dun get freak with this, i know it's wasting time to think I am alone)

hui e, wen, yeesan, I know u gals are always there for me.

But i am a lonely fighter.

I gonna fight in the toughest war.

I dun wan

Just wan to kick their ass!

Kenny:"sweetheart, u knw you are a fighter! I am proud of you!"

Yes, Sir...I know it....

When I am in something that I not really want , I have to make a change or make a big U-turn, but there are no other roads for me. I have to keep moving and telling myself, :" Come On, I can make it!"(bull-shit)

*** To M

Dear son of bitch~ :) Keep on doing those f*ck things on me! I knw u are reading this! This is for you:" You cant break a broken heart!" I got nothing to lose!

*** To D

What's that for!? Use your brain instead of your butt! U make no sense! So stopping doing that because I am naive not stupid! I know EVERYTHING!

What I wan.....is someone hold me and tell me :" everything will be alright!"

But there is no one.

Anywhere, I gonna stand up and move :)